So I was inundated for the last few months preparing for my annual event. This year it was held on August 26th at Bailey Farms in Ossining, NY. Leading up to the actual day was actually exciting versus the feelings of anxiety.
As most of you know, I have this thing with “words” because those words can transfer feelings of positivity or negativity. So notice I used the word “exciting” to describe how I was feeling through the duration of preparation. Doesn’t “exciting” sound more positive/uplifting to you? My experience with anxiety has never been positive or healing for me. You see, if I’m anxious, it’s not just a little bit …. I am over the top anxious and the feelings of anxiety and fear paralyze me. That knot in my stomach is almost of addictive nature because that’s where I would take it. Not anymore….
Today I carefully choose my words….”exciting” during this process was uplifting. No knots in the stomach, filled with joy because I was eager to share this day with 25 women. Don’t get me wrong, it was a lot of work and sometimes I felt frustrated things weren’t going my way, but I rose above it.
Now the theme for this year’s event was, “Darling, YOU Are Fabulous….Transforming Your Inner Critic into Self-Confidence”. My inner critic was “TRYING” to kick my ass through those 4 months. After all these years she (inner critic, the little child inside of me) was haunting me with negative thoughts about the event. She kept telling me I wasn’t going to get the 25 women, there would not be enough interest, it wasn’t going to be successful, etc., etc. So I told her to “shut the f*** up and let me do my thing). And I did, and it was AWESOME. In fact, I can say this was my best event and my best talk. And we had fun, lots of fun….we had Dr. Wanda Jeanty share on Gut Health, Sara Sampaio gave a talk on Skincare, Jennifer Marvin took us on a Yoga/Meditation journey that was awesome and Aimee Jett conducted a Creative Arts Workshop. My talk was about the inner critic, shame, self-confidence…and that’s an entirely separate blog to share.
Between the words you choose and your inner critic, life can be quite challenging. It can take you into depression and have you spiral down ~ OR ~ YOU can choose positivity and be the adult to your inner child and tell her, “I got this”….(although my choice of words with my inner child were a lot tougher)…lol! Why do most go down negativity road with the negative words and beating the crap out of ourselves….we’re CONDITIONED, and carry FALSE BELIEFS.
YOU get to choose before you open your mouth and applying the wrong vocabulary to your circumstances; you get to choose your “actions” before taking that first step. So which is it for you?
YAY words or NAY words???? Be wise and accept that if you are conditioned to speak/think negatively, it’s time you spoke with a positive professional to help you get on the other side. It’s your life, it’s always your choice….no shame in being negative, no judgment – sometimes that’s what we were brought up with and we are conditioned. However, now that you are aware, YOU can no longer use your childhood as an excuse to continue acting out. Life is short….I want you to be happy and once you get a taste of that, you will be full of joy and bring that joy to others and a lot more fun to be around. Soooo?????
Above is the video link of our closing ceremony at Sunday’s Women’s Workshop. It still brings tears to my eyes…every time I watch it. The ladies were absolutely amazing, participating, shared a tear or two and lots of laughs.
One of the segments of the Workshop was the coaching game ~ I’m not one to boast and when wrong, promptly admit it. Not that I did anything wrong, but this was a new version I facilitated and I stumbled upon the directions and we had a little confusion…but I learned from it and I know it will be better next time.
Our Yoga therapist, Sarah, was fabulous ~ those moments we seldom experience of pure silence and meditation, were precious. I, for one, do meditate on a regular basis but am now more inclined to experiment with Yoga. The definition of connecting my mind with my soul was calm, peaceful, welcome. My wheels are constantly in motion which is why I need that special time to, slow down, calm the brain cells and connect with my spirit, my soul. It certainly helps with the balance I constantly strive for in my life.
I’m a wife, a mom, a grandma, a networker, a community volunteer, a friend….BALANCE is certainly needed. Without balance, I tend to act on overdrive and overlook the inner champion begging for awareness – awareness that she is in there, very much alive and does not want to be overlooked. She is the spirit and champion that catapults me into my journey and to believe in myself.
My inner champion is overlooked when I reflect on my false beliefs ~ I don’t give false beliefs that power any longer. I’m on a journey with my champion and not allowing any negativity from my past to dominate the positive space I am in today….focusing on my future.
I sure look forward to you joining us for the next Workshop which promises to be the best yet. Stay tuned….chin up, shoulders back and breathe. God bless, please take care. Mucho hugs!